Renaissance

Renaissance—our love flowering suddenly again, new and not new, lovely, open, sweet, startling after all. How twisting are the ways. But all this comes, i think, from surrender, acceptance, grief too, a passing through of the dark shadows, and grace, that unnameable, unseeable force. Miracle i no longer take for granted, remembering, reminding myself, to stay in each moment, enjoy it as fully as possible for all its richness, assume nothing.

We are experiencing something of a miraculous rebirth, both individually and together, a peace, joy, acceptance, ease. Able to be truly in the moment. Giving up worrying about the future or clinging to the past. Suddenly the present becomes so rich, full, surprising, easy. When stressful thoughts arise, I recognize them as such and let them go. I feel grateful, and i accept myself as best i can, that i am not perfect and that it's workable the way i am. I feel blessed to be able to enjoy the richness of my life and love again.

What i allow is the Will of the gods, the Great Way. It moves through me like a wind. I ride those currents, allowing them to move me. Letting loose the false conditioning of the past, so i can move with my true nature, at one with the Will of the gods, and so, at ease in my heart. "Move me where you want me to go," i say, cultivating trust, reminding myself of their kindness when fear rises up in my heart. Aligning my heart to the world heart and finding it has my best interests held lovingly in hand.

The body is a key and prayer. Its healing is part of the whole work. And words, taking on sacred shape and meaning, used with care. Love is a conduit. Listening is the most powerful tool. What is erased in me i am relieved to be without. What has been consumed by the fire is transformed to light, heat, radiance, passion, life-giving joy.

It is necessary to get very quiet inside, to take dictation from above, beyond, within.

I make mistakes and i learn, so it is ok and even necessary to make mistakes.

I am an open question. A powerful change is at work.